Unrequited love.
This is how Urban Dictionary defines it, "It's the feeling of being completely, hopelessly, desperately in love with someone, all the while knowing that your feelings will never reach them. It's contradictory in that you feel incredible because you love someone so much, but also at the same time you feel almost overwhelming despair because you will never know what it is like to hold them in your arms, or touch their face, or kiss their lips. You will never know what it is like to wake-up next to them in bed in the morning, bodies entwined. It can be masochistic in nature- it causes such heartache, but you enjoy loving the person so much, you willingly let your heart go through the agony, so you can hold onto something- I don't know, maybe hope?"
There are a few examples in popular literature and movies. Some examples are Charlie Brown and the little red-haired girl, characters of the Jane Austen novels, and characters in A Midsummer Night's Dream. The movie The Holiday has two characters that overcome unrequited love, as does He's Just Not That Into You. Here is a more detailed list of literary works: http://www.librarything.com/tag/Classic+Literature,+unrequited+love
I feel like I have had my fair share of it. Most of my relationships have had this involved, whether it's me being the one who expresses love first, or mistaking my feeling for love when they aren't in fact love. With so many failed relationships and men taking advantage of me in some shape or form, it's hard to know whether or not I really know what love is or what it feels like. I second-guess myself so often anymore that I am not sure what a healthy relationship is and I am doubting whether or not I will find it. I worry about ending up alone, especially when I see so many others settling down and having families. As I approach 30, I wonder, when will it be my turn? Is it really love or just infatuation at it's finest? As relationships end, I often feel a lack of closure and wonder why things suddenly took a 180. Was I just missing the signs that things had gone awry or had I not wanted to see it? Other times, I am the one who ends it.
I have done a lot of thinking about my life thus far and done some research. Some people are just not right for each other. I know that nothing can ever be perfect and I cannot expect it to be. I believe a big part of it all comes down to personality types. I am an introvert with extrovert tendencies. I have noticed a pattern. Those who are more introverted than I am are not good matches for me. One of us pulls away and things end. If the person is too extroverted, I am too scared to talk to them or to get out of a relationship if it is already in progress. I know that there has to be a balance.
This is how Urban Dictionary defines it, "It's the feeling of being completely, hopelessly, desperately in love with someone, all the while knowing that your feelings will never reach them. It's contradictory in that you feel incredible because you love someone so much, but also at the same time you feel almost overwhelming despair because you will never know what it is like to hold them in your arms, or touch their face, or kiss their lips. You will never know what it is like to wake-up next to them in bed in the morning, bodies entwined. It can be masochistic in nature- it causes such heartache, but you enjoy loving the person so much, you willingly let your heart go through the agony, so you can hold onto something- I don't know, maybe hope?"
There are a few examples in popular literature and movies. Some examples are Charlie Brown and the little red-haired girl, characters of the Jane Austen novels, and characters in A Midsummer Night's Dream. The movie The Holiday has two characters that overcome unrequited love, as does He's Just Not That Into You. Here is a more detailed list of literary works: http://www.librarything.com/tag/Classic+Literature,+unrequited+love
I feel like I have had my fair share of it. Most of my relationships have had this involved, whether it's me being the one who expresses love first, or mistaking my feeling for love when they aren't in fact love. With so many failed relationships and men taking advantage of me in some shape or form, it's hard to know whether or not I really know what love is or what it feels like. I second-guess myself so often anymore that I am not sure what a healthy relationship is and I am doubting whether or not I will find it. I worry about ending up alone, especially when I see so many others settling down and having families. As I approach 30, I wonder, when will it be my turn? Is it really love or just infatuation at it's finest? As relationships end, I often feel a lack of closure and wonder why things suddenly took a 180. Was I just missing the signs that things had gone awry or had I not wanted to see it? Other times, I am the one who ends it.
I have done a lot of thinking about my life thus far and done some research. Some people are just not right for each other. I know that nothing can ever be perfect and I cannot expect it to be. I believe a big part of it all comes down to personality types. I am an introvert with extrovert tendencies. I have noticed a pattern. Those who are more introverted than I am are not good matches for me. One of us pulls away and things end. If the person is too extroverted, I am too scared to talk to them or to get out of a relationship if it is already in progress. I know that there has to be a balance.
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