The Sky is the Limit

I am not waiting around anymore for someone to do things with or for someone to make me happy. I am doing what I want to do with my life. That means visiting sites I want to see, finally getting my tattoo I have been wanting, and achieving my goals. I am not going to let anyone get me down. I also think that I might be over dating for a while... I can't seem to get this whole dating thing figured out. I am figuring out what makes me happy. I am living for me... let's see what the future holds...

Life is What You Make it

I got a card from my mom recently and it made me think about the direction my life is heading. This is what it said: "This is your LIFE. Do what you love and do it often. If you don't like something, change it. if you don't like your job, quit. If you don't have enough time, stop watching TV. If you are looking for the love of your life, stop; they will be there waiting for you when you start doing the things you love. Stop over-analyzing, life is simple. All emotions are beautiful, when you eat, appreciate every last bite. Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come once, seize them. Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them, so go out and start creating. Life is short. Live your dream and share your passion."

All I can say is, I am still waiting for my life to start. I have moments where I ask myself why my life is on its current trajectory. And the thing I hate the most is when I can't do what I set out to do after college... it's so frustrating. I thought that I could be in a job I love and on my own. Well, I am sort of doing that, but not in the way I want to. Life is about compromise sometimes. I like my job, but dislike my living situation and current set of rules by which I am forced to live my life.... yet again, I chose this because it seemed that I had no other option. Now, it doesn't matter how hard I work or how well I perform on the job (even though I out-perform most of the people I work with)... it all matters how I look on paper and what qualifications I have. The Navy is all about qualifications, and what I did before the Navy, including my degree, don't really count for anything... it sucks! Most times, I question why I even have stuck with this this long, but I can't back out of it now because I signed a contract, after all. Oh well, I just have to stick this out a little while longer before I can go back to school and go for the job I want.