So many thoughts going through my mind... I feel as if I am at a crossroads in my life again. Which way do I turn? Where am I headed in life? It's been 10 years and I still feel a little lost. I really thought I'd be somewhere else by now... not geographically speaking, I can't wait to be home for good if not close enough to be near those I love yet far enough away to have my own life... I mean in other aspects of my life. It's all so complicated. But, I guess life is never easy. My mind is reeling and sometimes I wish I knew where to turn. Some things have been sorted but I'm not as settled as I thought I'd be by now. We all have dreams of where we will be 10 years out of high school, but we never think it will be like this. Everyone hopes to have that perfect job, car, house, family... life... well, nothing is perfect and there are many bumps along the road to trying to make yourself happy. I am mostly happy with where I'm at, but why do I feel so unfulfilled? What truly is the definition of love? Have I found it and just don't know it yet? Why are there so many let downs in life? Why is it so complicated? There has to be a leveling off point... I am happy with some things but others are lacking. I hate being one to complain and I have it good for now. I just wish a few things could change. Something to ponder I guess...
