Why do we fall in love? How do we know when we are in love?
It's different for everyone. I used to think that love was one thing and as I've gotten older, it's completely different. I used to be so open and wore my heart on my sleeve. Now, I am more guarded, but apparently, not enough. I spent three years in a relationship with someone that I didn't really know. It was difficult to fall in love, but I did. Then, when he didn't say it back to me, I was hurt and started to push him away. I almost feel like I shouldn't have let myself fall in love or be vulnerable. I hate being vulnerable and then getting my heart broken. But, that's life. We either fall in love or fall in lust. There's no in between. The line can sometimes get confusing. That line was why I didn't tell him that I loved him until after being together for two years. That's the longest I've gone without saying it. But, in all fairness, it wasn't a typical relationship. Having my heart and mind broken by so many others has had an effect on me. So, why bother being vulnerable at all? Well, that's part of what makes us human, I think. It's our connection with others, whether it's platonic or romantic. Humans love other humans.
It's different for everyone. I used to think that love was one thing and as I've gotten older, it's completely different. I used to be so open and wore my heart on my sleeve. Now, I am more guarded, but apparently, not enough. I spent three years in a relationship with someone that I didn't really know. It was difficult to fall in love, but I did. Then, when he didn't say it back to me, I was hurt and started to push him away. I almost feel like I shouldn't have let myself fall in love or be vulnerable. I hate being vulnerable and then getting my heart broken. But, that's life. We either fall in love or fall in lust. There's no in between. The line can sometimes get confusing. That line was why I didn't tell him that I loved him until after being together for two years. That's the longest I've gone without saying it. But, in all fairness, it wasn't a typical relationship. Having my heart and mind broken by so many others has had an effect on me. So, why bother being vulnerable at all? Well, that's part of what makes us human, I think. It's our connection with others, whether it's platonic or romantic. Humans love other humans.
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